New bf is an Aries… I mean nuff’ said (Taken with instagram)
Best couple on Lost. I want to be of complete asian decent for so many reasons…. I think I may have a problem. :/ Sometimes I feel adopted.
i used to be this blog
Can’t stop looking at this dumb/beautiful interracial couples blog. Miss him like crazy. Only like blogs to see what others post.
I still don’t understand tumblr…
Probably because I am technology illiterate even though I am one of the generation that has had enough exposer that it shouldn’t be like when my grandmother wants to read an email.
“It’s on the internet right?” (looks at desktop) “So I can start reading now?!” Oh grandma.
I’ve been pondering if he is too perfect. I just don’t feel good enough sometimes honestly, in more than one way and it worries me. I’m not sure if this is how I am suppose to feel, or if this is more of some underlying affect of my teen years. Some people complain their parents paid too much attention, I complain that my parents didn’t know I existed or what I did to take care of them and their kids. Sometimes I feel like I don’t deserve happiness, and it reflects in my life. I manifest it. Only recently have I allowed myself the chance, and slowly it seems to be helping. It’s not perfect, but no ones life is perfect.
It disturbs me that I identify with these lyrics so well. “Love is when I’m lost, not when I’m found.” So to say love is the filler. I think about what my ideal life would be, and it’s simple. Not to say if I had that life, everything would be perfect but I wonder if I did, would I then allow myself to be loved completely? I don’t want to fuck this up, but I can’t cool these bubbling feelings. For now I want to let it play out, instead of running. I hope I can, because he’s worth it. I just don’t know if I am.
